Finally getting back on track

So right after classes start and I sign up at the gym, I get sick. Nice. Four days of.. Well it hurt to sit after awhile... Don't know how to politely say it... You get the idea.

Anyway, finally better so am trying to get back on track. Got to catch up on school work tomorrow plus make a run into town because the weather was just too bad to do it today. Plus other factors held me indoors today.

I seriously want to go to the gym SO BAD!!! Hopefully tomorrow I can get an hour in. We'll see.

Betsey was extremely fussy today. I think that maybe she was picking up on my mood. I was super stressed earlier and in a sour mood. She kept busting out in tears at the smallest things, and then coming and curling up on me. She is super emphatic! So I would bet you anything it was because of the way I was feeling. Which made me feel even worse. :-(

Well, she's asleep for the night, so I'm going to try to get at least a couple hours myself.

Goodnight!
-Nikki

Goals

1) Get completely organized.
2) Get on a schedule.
3) Go to the gym at least 5 days a week.
4) Become athletic, a runner.
5) Get Betsey Potty trained.

Those are my four top goals right now.

I was going to type a full entry. But I'm finally getting sleepy. Goodnight!

Lots of stuff going on, and around!

Just got over a nasty bug that tore its way through our household. Glad that's over!

My Grandma Smith is in the hospital, as far as I know, she is still in ICU. Please pray for her! I am going down tomorrow to see her. I really hope that she is doing better!

I learned a lesson with my iPod the hard way last night. Which is to make sure to sync it with my laptop EVERYDAY! I hadn't synced it for a week or more and had gotten a few albums and single songs on it, plus deleted a lot of apps, and downloaded a bunch of apps too! So I made the mistake of thinking I could quickly sync it right before bedtime. Ha. Ha. Ha . I plugged it in at around 10:30pm and it didn't get done syncing until 3:40am!!! I was NOT happy! Anyhow, so then I finally get to sleep to have Betsey pee through just a bit ago, around 6:30ish and had to change her. And for done dumb reason I am WIDE awake! Ugh.

I have got so much to do today it's pathetic! Going to head down and make a stop at Walmart in Pontiac for some needed items, drop something off with Todd's kids, then go ahead on down to my Mom's and do laundry. Then when Todd gets down there to help with Betsey, I will finally get to see my Grandma Smith! And in this schedule somewhere I have to read the preface to a textbook and also do a review in math and fill out a short bio on the discussion board and reply to two other posts. *sigh* They tell you school doesn't start until the 10th, but then you get emails telling you what you should have done BEFORE classes start. Nice! :-/ And I thought that I would voluntarily start to get ahead! Guess not! Lol

So yeah, this day is going to be interesting. Especially with the fact that I have gotten so little sleep! I don't know whether to try to catch some more Z's or get up for the day? Ah, if I do get back to sleep, I'm afraid I won't want to get up until noon, though!

Well, I'm going to get off of here and decide what I'm going to do I guess.

Poor Boo...

So yeah, wondering how this day is going to turn out with the little sleep I have gotten. At 8am I was woken up by little hands slapping the crap out of me. When I said, "Betsey, what are you doing!?" She burst into sobs. So I am guessing she was having a nightmare. I cuddled with her and she went back to sleep and is still sleeping. I love her so much and hate to see her gave a nightmare even!

Well, since she is still sleeping, I think that I will try to get some more sleep to!

Sleep Deprived

So here it is, 4:10am and I haven't slept a wink. No, I haven't been on my iPod or my laptop this entire time. I have seriously been trying to sleep and can't. Then I wind up dizzy, have a headache, and sick to my stomach. This has been going on for several days now if not over a week. Any suggestions? Anyone?

So today I didn't get to the laundry again do to schedule conflicts. So tomorrow will be laundry day.

I also didn't make it up to the college bookstore, but I ran across something that I'm going to see if financial aide will pay for. It is a desk and short bookshelf combo that is the perfect size for my needs! The great part is that it's only $60! So I'm thinking that financial aide won't have a problem with paying for it! Here's to hoping!

Well, this is NOT helping my head AT ALL. Going to try to get some sleep. *sigh* I just hope that this time I will actually really GET some SLEEP!

Ugh.. My stomach doesn't like me today...

So, I should have left this house three hours ago to get to Dad's.  But seeing as how sick my stomach is feeling, I'm waiting to see if this goes away first.  If it's a bug, I don't want to be the one that ruins everyone's holidays by passing a bug around.  I know that I was taught to share, but this is something that I'd like to keep to myself!

I so can't wait for Christmas!  To watch Betsey open presents all by herself this year will be amazing!  Though I should say Christmas Eve, since that is when Grandpa (my Dad) has his celebration.  Normally, I would be looking forward to the yummy food, too... But right now thinking about food makes my tummy churn even worse... o_O  I really hope this goes away QUICKLY so that we can be on our way!  Just got a few things to throw in the car and I need to jump in the shower.

I will miss Todd something fierce, though.  Betsey and I will be away a whole week this time.  I wonder how she'll handle it?  I'm sure she will be fine.  Bandit, Dad's dog, will keep her busy.  :-)

Well, this certainly isn't helping my stomach or my head, so I'm going to get off of here and try to go ahead and finish getting ready.  That way, when my tummy decides to stop doing flips, we'll be ready to just walk out of the door!

Please, stomach, BE NICE TO ME!!!

~Nikki~

My heart can only take so much.

I don't even know where to start.  I don't want to add any coal to the fire, so I'm not going to state any names or details.  I am still trying to make sense of what has been said about me.  I have shown Todd and others around me what is being said, let them read the e-mails, and they were just as shocked as I was.  No one can figure out where this stuff is coming from.  It's incredibly outrageous!  Yet it is being said of me.  How very nice.  My thoughts are that they are just trying to destroy my Thanksgiving.  And also try to distract me enough from school work that I'll get bad grades because they are jealous that I am actually doing something with my life?  That's my take on the whole thing.  Though I don't know.  Like I said, everyone I have shown the e-mails to just can't believe it and thinks it is outrageously ridiculous.  But with that said, now I'm trying to decide what to do for Thanksgiving.  I'm already going to be at my Mom's, I'm thinking about just staying there for my whole Thanksgiving break.  I'm not going to have my holiday ruined by being tense and having to watch my back the whole time.  I can relax and be myself at my Mom's.  So I think that is what I'm going to do.  Even though some say that I'm "running away"  I don't care.  I want to enjoy myself over my break, not be constantly stressed out.  So, yeah, maybe it's running away, but at least I will be having a good time doing it!  I'm just so done with trying, so done with giving my heart out just to have it put in a blender, so done with all the drama and everything!  Therefore I will never be around when they are.  I tried my best, that's all I can do... But since it has resulted in this, I think it's time that I just disappear.  If they want to believe all of the lies, I guess this is good-bye.  I'm not leaving for good, just whenever they are coming over, Betsey and I will stay at my Mom's.  It's settled, it's done, I'm done...  My heart has been broken too many times.  I just can't take it, my heart will not be squashed by you again.  I am not going to let it.  Sorry, but I'm not.